Hello Everybody
I turned comments back on, they have a new feature called word verification that will slow down the spam.
Today has been rough. We met with the Sarcoma specialist and were told what we really already knew but didn't want to hear (does that make sense?). My cancer is to a point where there really is no curative treatment available. The only treatments (chemo, clinical trials, surgery) out there will simply buy me more time and delay the inevitable. He said that if I didn't pursue any treatments he would guess that I would live about 2 more years. Hopefully with treatments I can extend that window.
This leaves me with more questions and problems. I have to figure out how to break it to my oldest son, I have to make plans for what will happen afterwards, and how this will affect the rest of my life.
I know that a lot of people that have followed me and this blog will be angry/sad etc. That's perfectly normal, we are too. I do feel like I have reached a peaceful state of mind regarding the inevitable. I feel blessed to have experienced what I have and the opportunities that I have been given. I know many people in this world never will have those same opportunities. When I do die it will be a beautiful happy thing. It will give me relief from this disease. At that time it will be the best thing for me.
But let's not get too far ahead, I should have years not days or months. I plan on using those therapies to buy as much time as possible and I definitely plan on living life to the fullest. We are going to the Ride for the Roses in Austin, We are going to take the kids to DisneyWorld, and if my health permits we plan on going to Ireland with my parents.
To borrow a movie quote, "Everyman dies, few men truly live". I feel like I truly live and have no regrets, I hope that you do too.
LIVESTRONG
Andrew
Today has been rough. We met with the Sarcoma specialist and were told what we really already knew but didn't want to hear (does that make sense?). My cancer is to a point where there really is no curative treatment available. The only treatments (chemo, clinical trials, surgery) out there will simply buy me more time and delay the inevitable. He said that if I didn't pursue any treatments he would guess that I would live about 2 more years. Hopefully with treatments I can extend that window.
This leaves me with more questions and problems. I have to figure out how to break it to my oldest son, I have to make plans for what will happen afterwards, and how this will affect the rest of my life.
I know that a lot of people that have followed me and this blog will be angry/sad etc. That's perfectly normal, we are too. I do feel like I have reached a peaceful state of mind regarding the inevitable. I feel blessed to have experienced what I have and the opportunities that I have been given. I know many people in this world never will have those same opportunities. When I do die it will be a beautiful happy thing. It will give me relief from this disease. At that time it will be the best thing for me.
But let's not get too far ahead, I should have years not days or months. I plan on using those therapies to buy as much time as possible and I definitely plan on living life to the fullest. We are going to the Ride for the Roses in Austin, We are going to take the kids to DisneyWorld, and if my health permits we plan on going to Ireland with my parents.
To borrow a movie quote, "Everyman dies, few men truly live". I feel like I truly live and have no regrets, I hope that you do too.
LIVESTRONG
Andrew
posted by Andrew Molenda at 10:41 PM
2 Comments:
We will pray for you everyday, because I know first hand that you will battle this thing until you have conquer this thing! You say this is a battle that you have no choice but to fight. I've seen the ugly head of cancer to many times and I have seen this battle. You do have a choice and you are taking the fighting path, which does lead to success! LIVESTRONG!!!!!!!!!!
There are many who continue to pray for you and your family daily. You have such courage and are such a wonderful example for so many. May God bless you with the time you want/need with your family.
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